It all comes back...

Isn't it amazing how sometimes we have those "deja vu" moments where we feel we've been somewhere before, or said the same thing at the same exact place, just at another time? You know those moments. Well, my moments with God lately have been kind of like that. Come to think of it, maybe it's not "deja vu," but more like "way back when." I have a pretty strong relationship with Him when I need something or when something isn't going right in my life - at those times we are pretty close. But sadly, I find myself drifting when things are calm.
I wonder why that is. My lifelong friends and I talk all the time, not just when we need something or when things are bad in our lives. We talk daily - to see how each other's day has been, or just to see what they are eating for dinner. Wouldn't it be wonderful for our relationship with God to be that way. I know I would love for that to happen, and there have been times in my life where I've felt just that close.
It is sad to me to think that the only reason it isn't like that today, is because I haven't been meeting God at our time. I pass by my Bible on my coffee table, with a sideward glance, thinking to myself, "not right now, I'll get to that later" - and the whole reason it's out on the coffee table in the first place, is so that I will SEE it and READ it!! We find excuses.
I think about what God is thinking when I go and pour a cup of coffee in the morning and run to my email, to see who has sent me a message. I am now envisioning God sitting on the edge of His chair, and thinking to Himself - "Here she comes, maybe today." and then I walk swiftly past Him to pay bills - the same bills I am going to pray to Him to allow me to be able to pay!!
But, inevitably life throws something else at me, and makes me come back to my God at His feet. Even as I'm writing this, I am ashamed. Ashamed that the only time for God that I have is when I need prayer.
Things have a way of always coming back...
When I sit and worship the Lord, it all comes back
When I lift my voice in song, it all comes back
When God answers my prayers before I've even asked, it all comes back
When Madison (5), out of the blue, tells me she remembers riding on the 4-wheeler with her Papa (who just passed away), and that Papa probably wishes he could see her but that he'll see her one day because she's going to Heaven, too, it all comes back

It shouldn't be "coming back," it should be "always there" because God is always there.

Dear Lord,
My prayer today is that while you are always there with me, that I'll find myself always there wtih you. I pray that our friendship will not always be one-sided, with you waiting for me to come back to you. I pray that I'll be with you always. I pray that the excuses of life, will not keep me from spending time in Your Word! Lord, You have always shown me the right path when I turn to You. I pray that we will walk in step with each other every single moment of my life. I love You, Amen.